Honey's supportive doctor

I talked with Honey's PCP a while ago on the phone.
I am always impressed with the time she gives Honey and I both on the phone and in the office. I never feel like I am wasting her time nor do I feel like she is thinking that I need to stop telling her (PCP) what I need.
I had a couple goals concerning our conversation.

First, I wanted to update her as to what is going on (that we had not started reducing, that Honey was still trying to transition from tablets to liquid (while maintaining "stability"), and wanted her to know that Honey is just now feeling completely "normal" since the TEVA form of sertraline experience. I told her that I thought "Honey must be pretty sensitive to this medication". I feel if I say this (instead of saying the drug/poison "sucks" and is killing people) that I will not put her on the defensive and still have her seeing that my ideas about tapering really slow and cautiously is best for "Honey".
That goal met.

Second goal was to express my concern over transitioning to the liquid and shared with her my "information" regarding the possibility that the liquid might also trigger withdrawal symptoms (like the TEVA did for Honey) and that I wanted to transition slowly (from tablet to liquid) as well as keep her on at least 12.5mg of the tablet while decreasing the liquid.
Goal met-- she probably thinks I am nuts, but she said she definitely was okay with that and would continue to write refills for both the liquid and tablets as long as needed- would I just keep her updated- I almost thought it sounded like she meant "Keep educating her on this process".

Third goal: Ask PCP if she would write a note for school to inform school of Honey's diagnosis and let them know that she was having medications adjusted and the adjustments might cause physical and psychological symptoms. This is what I asked her to write (or something along those lines)-- we will see what we get. I also asked if she would be willing to help out as needed as far as school goes and she said "Certainly".
third goal met (haven't seen the note yet, but anything at this point from her that informs school of her diagnosis and med changes and knowing that PCP will back us as needed is all I need to get things started with school.
I feel like I accomplished something.

Honey continues to do well. We have started daily documentation as far as dosage, Honey's moods and any physical symptoms- so we will have a good baseline to go by when we start reducing and making poison (med) changes as far as form (tablet to liquid). This is our plan for now:

Currently (for the past 10 days 3/10- 3/19) she is taking 37.5mg Zoloft - 12mg liquid (.6ml) and 25mg tablet.
Starting tomorrow 3/20 she will take ¾ of a 25mg tablet (18.75mg) and 19mg liquid (.95ml) She will continue this for 10 days (until 3/29) as long as there are no withdrawal symptoms.
At that point (on 3/30- Thursday) we will try ½ tablet (12.5mg) and 25mg liquid (1.25ml). After 10 days (starting 4/9) on this ratio of tablet to liquid, I would like to start reducing the liquid (as long as she is baseline). We will reduce at 5% (actually just a bit more) of the total dose of 37.5 (actually reducing 2mg/.1ml). We plan to have her stay at this dose until she feels baseline or better. (at least 2 weeks on this dosage) and will reduce from there as tolerated.
I plan to keep her on 12.5mg of the tablet (½ tablet) as she reduces the liquid. I will have to worry about making a transition with the remainder of the tablet later. (Once she has reduced a good deal of the liquid)

I have never felt this way before... like a pioneer? I feel like Honey and I are creating a map. We can talk to other pioneers, who have been this way before, but their map might be different or maybe they have not been "here" before. Weird. I dont like being here and I dont like being here without a proven map. Honey hates it. But in a way (?) it is actually empowering (?) (I am sure I will take this "empowering" thing back)
It is also weird trusting my gut to this degree. Trusting it over science and mainstream practice. I am proud of my intuition/gut and proud that I listened, as it knew to go slow with the liquid, even before I understood that there might actually be theory behind it (might bring about withdrawal symptoms??- theory/thought)

Uchenna Agu (as in Uchenna and Joyce from Amazing Race All-Stars (yes, I watch)) said something on last night's episode that I loved. I dont have his exact words but it went something like this: By not trusting your instinct/gut/intuition, you are basically telling God or the Universe that He (God) is wrong. Like I said, I got his exact words wrong, but I think I got the gist of it correct. I am going to look for his exact words, because they were great.